Archive | January, 2013

Cruel Intentions

20 Jan

As a child i could remember hearing the cliche “love conquers all” I didn’t really understand that until recently.  As I went through the maturation process of becoming a real man and not just getting older.  There were certain things that bothered me concerning the normal commonalities of a typical relationship.  One thing that never sat too well with me.  Was when people offer themselves and their entirety to someone who’s just in the situation to pass time or for other unspoken reasons.  I can’t ever see myself bending and strecthing outside the realms of my individuality to please someone else.  I feel as though a heart is too precious and vital to be misappropriately handled with such abuse.  Another thing that has always stirred me in the wrong way.  Is when people are very selfish in the initial states of a connection.  I feel that with any connection some strongholds whether their bad or good,  are gonna loosen eventually. With some being beneficial and the others being detrimental to the relationship.  But I also believe that in the beginning if both parties aren’t putting forth an effort (not saying that they should both be equal, because people make strides and move forward at different paces) then you should count your loses.  Because usually the one that’s bending and compromising their individuality.  That particular person happens to be the same one with a weeping heart at the end of the debacle.  I’ve often pondered how to differentiate the line drawn between vulnerability and stupidity?  On one hand you want to be open towards the person that draws your interest but on the other you don’t wanna fall victim to game.  Something that would help with avoiding the victim end of the ordeal.  Is learning to accept people for who they are and not allowing yourself to think that you can personally aide in changing them.  We all at one point or another have showed up somewhere looking for a heart and left with a rain check.  Hopefully the next time this takes place, the actual product in which we acquire is in stock.